some things are just too overrated... i mean who doesn't agree with me on that one? honestly i can't say i haven't fallen for the hype. some niggas seemed like amazingly untouchable to me and maybe that was why i fooled myself into thinking that i was sprung but perhaps i was just falling for the hype. physical attraction was definitely motivating me, but it was not all that great. esp because i sat there thinking physical attraction would turn into something promising. then up pops someone else who brings something to the table ...something physical of course but he's someone amazin' someone who accepts me and all my crazyness. but easy come easy go so you never know verdict until the cards are on the table.. so let's see where it goes.
there's so many things i can have in the blink of an eye.. esp if i wanted it that badly. but what difference does it make if i seriously want something and i have no way of getting it? my confidence goes so far in situations like this and i can't help but wonder where it'll take me now, esp in this situation!? I just don't get it... but I can seriously see somethings possibly happening. other guys will come and go like seasons and even if someone could seem better for me... he's there in the back of my mind, just hauntin me tauntin me to make some kind of move. honestly i can't really say im all too sure. i just need to make more of an effort to go for what i want. i just don't know understand how other guys keep coming in the picture gettin me all comfortable and shit and i'm lettin it all get me distracted. i don't know... maybe i do need to be more honest with my feelings.
omg stop me now before i get too ahead of myself. but ugh i haven't came down from the moon yet. some guys are replaceable... but there's always one who isn't.... but of course as life isn't perfect he doesnt know how i feel.
yeah, this semester is sadly zooming by soo quickly.
but yes, the title is right. i'm so over love and finding the "right" one.. i honestly feel like that i can't let myself be influenced by a boy. i am at the prime of my life right now. so therefore i need to do me to the fullest and what's best for me. however sometimes what i want and what i want to feel honestly doesn't always pan out to what seems to be my benefit. i want to just be independent and not feel inclined to receiving anything from a dude. i will never have an opportunity to relive these moments again, so i should just pick it up... and just be appreciative...
